合唱是这些日子的主题。很累很快乐。

合唱比赛前2天，接到辅导员的电话：怎么团工委说你没报名呢？

我突然惊醒，发现，我好像真的没报上名

原因是我那几天被气晕了，再加上我自己本来就很晕很糊涂，所以这种事情就理所应当的发生了。

结果就是我们排练了整整一个月的合唱被当了

于是我就打遍了团工委艺术部同学的电话

终于在一个好心的同学的帮助下了解我需要去把报名表给补上

但是我找遍了整个桌子，却发现那张恶心的东东不见了！！

天真的我以为网络是万能的就上网找表格下载

谁知道团工委那个恶心的网站竟然连那么重要的东西都没有！！

无奈，我只好亲自跑一趟团工委办公室了

跑过去发现团工委值班的同学真不是一般的恶心

拽个P啊！不懂什么叫为人民服务嘛？！

还好有个很可爱的姐姐，虽然她还是没有帮我找到我要的表，但是真的很感激她帮我。

无奈之下我又拨通了艺术部同学的电话

话说那个同学中文名叫hollywood。很搞笑。

她说让我把资料输入XX书记的电脑！

那个XX书记是全校闻名恶心的书记呃，无奈之下我只能求他了。

还好，那个书记嘟囔了一阵子还是给我用了他的电脑。

然后我就滚了。

我！发誓！！我以后再也不要干那么蠢的事情了！！！

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第二天也就是合唱前的那个下午

同学们热情都不高涨，唱了几次画zi都很无满意

而且那帮男生猴子还把她气哭了。

在我的劝导下，男生们一起给她道歉，事情才解决。

后来画子又说他们喉咙没打开让他们喊一下

于是我就跟他们说，要不我们喊中大哲学，天下一绝吧！

他们说好！然后他们就喊：中大哲学，天下一绝！11好漂亮.....

说实在的，我没有意料到他们会这样，但是真的很开心

咔咔！！不过因为他们赞我，是因为我们的感情

一个月真的没有白费...

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那天晚上比赛之前，他们都很high。异常的团结

我们在体育馆门口练的时候他们耍我说太黑了，看不见指挥

于是我就不指挥了站在他们中间唱，发现那种感觉真的很棒。

大家一起很有气势的唱着同一个曲调，一种团结的感觉油然而生

那一刻，我真的不想当指挥了。我只想站在他们中间跟他们一起唱歌

上台后，他们每一个人的脸上都带有非常甜美的笑容

每个人都显得很清爽很朝气。看到他们脸上的无邪，真的很感动。

开始的时候每个人都很积极，声音非常的洪亮

可能是因为歌曲本身就很积极的原因，大家越唱越High

到最后大家竟然有点破音了。

不过还是觉得很开心。

下场后我站在出口，跟每一个下场的人都说了一声你们很棒！

几个好朋友都过来抱我。我发现我们都已经热泪盈眶了....

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最后虽然没有拿到奖

但是我们都很开心！

他们都说，这次排练真的很有意义

其实，那就够了，不是嘛？

画子说，他们玩花样算什么！！我们也会！！

但是我却觉得那是对艺术的践踏。

我不能说我在艺术上有多高的造诣或者有多高尚

但是我却觉得艺术始终是艺术，用艺术去诠释始终比用花样给人带来的意义要积极。

或许那是我自己坚持的傲气吧....

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因为合唱，我可爱的托福已经被我抛到九霄云外了

单词也已经荒废了...

我真的很郁闷！！

我已经n天没有去图书馆了！！！

我的忏悔录到现在presen还没有准备！！

英语的presen到现在还没有写！！

怨念啊！！！

time pressing....

struggle as there is no way out!

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今天去考车了！！

我的学车生涯终于要结束拉！哇咔咔！

考试的那个考官还说，慢点慢点，吓死我了，都60KM/H了！我都不敢开那么快！

哈哈！笑死我了。于是我就顺利的过拉！

谢谢肥肥耐心的指导。

虽然没有什么真正意义上的教导，但是我真的很怕很怕！

原因我也不清楚是什么.....

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昨晚失眠，想了好久好久

突然发现已经快到5月了。

也就是说我的delta做了一个月，还没有做完！

555555....

我都不知道该怎么办了..
哎！！！

仔细数数，我们合唱训练也持续了一个月了

一个月的努力让我看到的不仅仅是哲学系小朋友，大朋友们的努力，更是大家对这份集体的热爱与奉献。

还记得一个月前中哲课上副书记给我传的文件：青春跟党走……

那一刻我真的很担心。

因为要考托福的缘故，自己觉得没有时间，没有精力，没有任何信心去排好。

任何人都知道排合唱不是一件容易的事情，一朝一夕的训练并不能有什么特别好的成绩

上一年的合唱虽然也是指挥，但是因为有冯伟师兄的专业指导，所以我就不管什么声乐部声乐的了

今年他走了，就只剩我一个人了！那个惨烈啊！幸好还找到了画zi，这个崇拜xx师兄的女人！

每次我们唱不好了她就会建议，要不你联系一下xx师兄吧？他肯定能解决！

等到第二天我告诉她xx师兄这么解决时，她就作醉倒状，崇拜状，五体投地状……

等到真正把谱子曲目全部确定下来时却听到大一小朋友们都不愿意参加的消息

晴天霹雳呃！怎么会这样呢？！想当年我们人都多了一倍都给劝回去了…

心寒..郁闷..只想放弃..

无奈辅导员飞信轰炸，手机爆炸下死命令说一定得参加..

好吧，谁让我们系的团总支没有文娱部呢！

刚开始训练的时候大家热情都很不高涨（虽然到现在大家也不高涨，只有我和画zi俩个女人在自high）

而且都觉得合唱是一件费劲的事情，但是看着大家都很努力的学，让这一切辛苦都觉得很有意义。

一开始的排练只能用王超的拇指钢琴，虽然很费劲，但是总比没有得好！

但是文娱部的某个可爱的部长为了弥补没来合唱，给我借来了可爱的电子琴！

开心死我了！

还记得那天学生会考核秋兰说的一句话，我觉得文娱部的每个人都是不可或缺的，因为我们每个人都有每个人的特点。

事实证明了嘉华还是很有用的！咔咔！

男生那帮孩子是最头疼的，我还记得画zi出行了几天回来后抱着我的画面

她很兴奋得跟我说，你怎么把这帮孩zi搞掂的？太强大了！

不得不提，男生那帮猴子们开始的时候五音不全，一部分还整天嚷着“我不会唱谱，看到5还要几秒钟反应是so，看到1要N秒钟反应do”

整天把可爱的li lo li lo li lo li说成是萝莉萝莉+萝莉

一天到晚兴奋得不行了劲讲话

导致了加训好几次

每次加训都闹得不行，但是每次加训后效果又无敌的好…

虽然跟你们排合唱很费劲，但是看到你们每次唱完给自己鼓得掌就觉得很欣慰！

一个月了，看着你们从不会唱谱到现在可以丢掉谱子熟练的把5唱成so，把1唱成do就觉得很开心。

觉得所有的不开心所有的累都很值得！

还记得昨晚把那群孩子留下来的时候，都嚷着不愿意

但是却没有人开溜，就练最少来的小羽毛也乖乖的在我面前唱完了才走

大家的努力使得今天的低声部变得格外的好听

练总是低半音的胡总都顺利的不走音了。

这事儿可是画zi一直引以为傲的啊！她说，太好了！事实证明xx师兄办不到得事情我们能做到！

说实在的，这一刻我真的很开心，开心到飞天了..

已经不记得第几次了

每次练到最后都是我们几个人

兆华，朱海彦，画zi和我

几辆自行车一并排开行进在逸仙大道上，讨论着怎样才能让大家唱得更好，如何处理兆华妈妈画zi的后事问题..

那种感觉真的很好！

谢谢2位哲学系男生的细心与耐心。我知道琴很重，所以很感动！

你们说的，好男人，哲学造！！

这也是我们系男生一直坚守的原则！很感动也很为你们骄傲！

哲学系的小朋友们和大朋友们！真的谢谢你们！很爱你们！

不管比赛的结果如何，我们付出了，就无怨无悔！！

Recently,  I have entangled myself into a unavoidable interpersonal relationship.

Though it’s none of my business.

And gradually I found that it’s very very very difficult to be innocent if you are considered having been guilty just for once.

Power is a very important term in Nietzsche’s philosophy

He wrote that everyone is deperate for power. And in order to gain the power over others one will just try every means to do it.

It’s very realistic and very pratical when I apply this theory to the phenomenon happened in my life.

People just make every efforts to gain their goal including the back door stuff which is so gross in most people’s mind

Though I don’t think that it is related to this incidence, it’s a truth in reality!

You just can’t deny it!

Power will make people blinded to all extent and that’s so cruel to drag others down just because you want to climb up!

Actually it’s a truth , but I am still looking forward to the Communism that this competence will just disappear because we all are created equal!

And I got to understand that reputation is so important.

Maybe u r so quiet or so innocent through out the past days but as long as you do sth mean people would tag you sinister in every circumstance

No defense . No argurment. And that’s life.

Maybe I am going to extreme to some extent and maybe because I am not mature at all

but that’s how it happend around me . So cruel…

Having been alone for a long time cause I don’t want to drag my roomates.

They are in love so they should lead a life with their boyfriends.

Me, as a friend only just need to go away and lead my own life.

But I am so thankful that you are thoughtful and don’t want to leave me alone

And I am really thankful that u guys’s concerns.

Appreciated…..

So lazy that I don’t want to jot down anything of my life!

I know that means a disaster but I just don’t want to record anything

So wierd cuase this isn’t the ture me!

So where is the true me?

Did I lost in some places?

Yep, in time!

Trash…..IGNORE!

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Rehearsal continues.

Once a professinal singer came by and hug me so tightly

said Hey you are so great to make them singing like this ! It’s so amazing!

I am so proud of our members actually.

Every time we finished they would clap and cheer ,for us,for me!

It’s so good to reach the terminal with them cause they really teach me a lot of things

And they gave me a lot of fun too!

I believe that every effort we make will pay off!

I knew that I am so stupid to do it but I just want a surprise

And it turns out to be nothing!

I am so stupid !!!

Having studying in library for a whole day is the most comfortable thing!

I am so fond of going to Library that I felt so depressed because of the close of library .

Am I insane?!

July 16th

Alone

Guangzhou New-oriental School

Gosh!!

But I am gonna be cool with it!!!

Still haunted by insomnia……

The sequelae of going home….Sigh!

Having been home for 2 days, everything seems to calm down and go back to the normal place.

I have been so fucked up for a couple of days just because everything is still in the air and I can't figure out the solutions. And I bumped into sth that I really hate. So messed up! But things going smoothly right now and I feel cool!

Actually I have a lot to say. But feel that words are too pale to express my feelings. It's too complicated!

Having attened Fora's class really gave me a lot of things. It's he who always tell us to have a positive attitude and it's he who always remind me it's time for hard working. Things just felt so right after he covey his thoughts to me! I really felt that I need more attitude for everything.

Abt that exchange thing. It turned out that I am not connected with Taiwan in fate. And I didn't feel so sad after I heard the result from my roomate. I felt so calm because things finally grounded.I don't need to change my schedule and I can chase my dream freely just accoding to my plan.I really relaxed. After I told Yaoyao the result she told me, having an exchange life is nothing to do with that school it's just abt fun! Maybe exchange is just abt fun and I have heard this saying for such a long time from Melody. But life is not just abt fun and I will be a Junior in a year. What I cared abt is my future. I really feel that time is pressing. However my mom was so disappointed. But after my explanaion, she just stood by my side. I know that world is a combination of darkness and brightness. Only if you have possitive attitude that can you see the bright side of the world. And abt the darkness, just let it go and don't take it so seriously cause you will never know what will the darkness will bring to you. I mean we just need to prepare and to be ourselves without complaint that we can get though it! And after you have survive it, the future will be brighter!

Abt that message, I really knew that you cared about me no matter when, and I really appreciate that you tell me to take care. But you know what, chasing a dream is not just saying but doing. To fullfill a goal is not just making out a plan without doing anything. And my plan is not just about a blank sheet, what I need is a perfect answer. I need every effort to pay off. Maybe not this time but sooner or later it will! And I will take care of myself! I promised! Going to librabry is a habit for me I fell that I am addicted to library to some extent. I feel so right sitting there no matter what I am doing. And I never suffer from an insonmia there. Things just so weird!

Abt Nietzsche, it's so good to have that Original Courses. After reading that passage abt greatese weight, I found that life is so valuable cause leading a life is by no means an easy job! He asked us if your life is going to repeat in numerable times, will you say yes to it? Yep, it's a very difficult and ridiculous question at first sight, but if you think deeper you will find that he is right. Life is too short that you are responsable for it! You must be thougtful and considerate abt every single choice. You must not fell regret abt every choices you have made so we must lead our life seriouly!

I am a shoperholic without doubt! And I think I am becoming Carrie in the aspect of shoes. I am so fond of high-heeled shoes though I don't wear it so often. But I really love it !!!!!!

Too much trash!!Time for soap opera!

电脑在某个特殊的夜晚死掉了

那个特殊的夜晚，风很凉，我一个人练完合唱回来走在逸仙大道上看到了别人身上的温暖

然后就花了2个多小时请教我们系的男生们

无奈大家都不用vista，所以只能第2天把电脑给他们了

那天晚上我11点叫了外卖

它在我1点钟洗完衣服的时候送到

我！要！崩！溃！了！

第二天在风骚好人的帮忙下

我可爱的白加黑终于修好了

但是练完合唱回去拿的时候却被他拿去打dota了

然后还不肯给回我！

怨念啊！！！

那天练合唱，很开心。

基本上都是男生的低声部肩负神圣的重任

一群大小孩虽然很吊儿郎当

但是都很聪明而且很可爱。

那天其实心情很down，但是跟他们在一起唱歌就觉得世界很美好

尽管他们整天把5唱成6，整天把li lo li lo li lo li唱成萝莉萝莉萝莉罗

但是还是很开心，因为真的很high!

那天晚上回去的时候小华答应了我要帮我拿电脑，所以他就一直陪我赔到最后才走

上去拿电脑的时候因为风骚拿我的电脑去打dota了所以拿不了给我

那个时候已经晚上11点了

要知道我再不回去就只能拿着电脑爬窗了

小华在电话里叫我先回去，他把电脑送过来R10给我

我放完车出来就发现他再门口等我了

还跟我说，风骚决定跟我们一起合唱！

虽然我觉得我最近RP暴跌

但是那个晚上我真的觉得很温暖！

回去跟主任说起她前男友多好时，就发现她在跟他现男友说她想跟他复合了。

咔咔！恩！好男人嘛！还是很抢手的！

今天心情跟昨天一样

还是有点郁闷

我也不知道我是怎么了！

今天载了个电脑钢琴

很无语！但是还蛮好玩的，总比没有好！

(⊙o⊙)新版live writer没有以前的好看！

我还是喜欢以前的背景….

装新系统了，我的ipod真的要被清空吗？

时间快点过！

我要回家！！！